I am glad that you enjoyed your time here, but now I have to
ask that you move on. It would be best for both of us. I’m not saying that I
didn’t enjoy having you around for a while, but really I’ve just been putting
up with you since the New Year. I would say this is difficult for me but that
would be a lie. I really can’t even stand to look at you anymore. One glance at
you has started to make me ill. I know it sounds harsh, but the fact that you
will most likely be back in 6-7 months should ease your pain. But if I want to
get rid of you that means I have to move. I hope you realize how unfair that
is.
You have overstayed your welcome, winter.
I would say that I hope to never see you again but I know it isn't possible for me. You are welcome to return for Christmas. Until then, goodbye.
My Grandpa passed away last night. I was stunned when I got the news. The man has been fighting for so long that I almost expected him to keep fighting. And that thought makes me feel selfish. And of course I automatically thought of how I should have called more and visited more often. This seems to be typical when you lose someone... you start thinking about what you missed or what you didn't do enough of.
The thing is there is nothing to say. I hate the cliche of "they're in a better place" or crap like that. Nobody wants to hear that when someone they love is gone. All we can do is take what we learned from that person and apply it to our lives. They wouldn't want us to stop living because they're gone.
But I'm still irrationally angry and I can't help it. Why do I have to go to work and go to appointments and live my life when a person I loved is gone? Also, when going through everyday stuff when people ask "How are you?" to be nice, I have to reply with the standard "good" rather than the depressing response of oh, I'm just dying inside, thanks for asking. Because I have to be polite and not spread the awful feeling I'm having and make them feel awkward. Which makes me think I'm doing that to you instead by you reading this. But you can stop at any time so you've done this to yourself. Why are you still reading this?
What I have left are memories and stories that I can share with the people who also loved him. And those people are the only ones who know how I feel. And I'm thankful that they're there because it means we can lean on each other.
I had an accidental cold shower this morning. How does one accidentally take a cold shower? Did you forget where the hot and cold knobs were? Well if you would calm your shit down and be patient I would tell you.... And don't be a smart ass.
So it went like this.
I got up to take a shower this morning as one does before work when I thought I would browse Pinterest on my phone while the water got hot. 10 minutes later I'm still standing there looking at pins when I snapped out of it.
Stop distracting me!
Before you get on my case for wasting water, I KNOW! I feel bad enough as it is. You don't have to be a dick about it.
So when I finally woke up from a pinterest nap the water had gotten cold. Not having time to wait because I had to get ready for work, I took the quickest shower of my life. I had to make myself stick my head under by saying "you've done this to yourself!"
Luckily my husband doesn't get up to take his shower until 30-45 minutes later or I would have had to explain why the water was the temperature of my heart.
Adventure Time! After hearing about it on the interwebs I decided to watch it. Now I love it. I bought the Season 1 DVD recently so I could watch from the beginning. The only thing I wish there was more of was more seasons on DVD. They're on season 5 but the Season 2 DVD doesn't come out until June.
Polyvore is a cool fashion site. If you've spent any time on Pinterest you may have seen some (check out my "My Style" pinterest board for examples). You can follow people or create your own fashions. A fun waste of time if you like that sort of thing.
WTF, Evolution? This tumblr is horrifying but I can't stop looking at it. It's like some horrible accident you can't stop looking at as you drive by.
I started playing Lego Lord of the Rings recently. It's fun so far and there are a lot of side quests you can go on. If you liked any other lego games and like Lord of the Rings, I would check this out.
So I'm back to work again after a 4 month unemployed vacation. Though it wasn't really a vacation because I never left my house. It was a brief glimpse into what my life as a hermit will be like.
So I go back and I'm sharing an office space with 4 other people. I've been alone for the past 4 months so I'd forgotten about natural but hopefully private bodily functions while in public locations. As I'm sitting there I'm thinking...
What if I have to fart really bad? Remember not to, I guess. Oh no, what about when I have to go to the bathroom? This could get awkward if someone comes in (multiple stall bathrooms are embarrassing). There is no privacy here.
But other than the weirdness I'm glad to be getting out of the house again... for now. I've only been back for a week and a half so far. I may want another vacation later, but I'm enjoying doing something useful at the moment.
I wanted to talk about something important today. And what is more important than human rights? There is a lot of stuff as important, I'm not saying there isn't. I'm just talking about human rights today. Specifically, fair labor practices... of chocolate.
You know what? I think I might have a hard time explaining this. So here's a video by YouTube vlogger italktosnakes about what I want to talk about that can explain it better than I could.
In the video Kristina talks about the petition Show us the Report. If this is something you're interested in please follow the link there and sign. The Harry Potter Alliance is a great organization so if it sounds like something you'd be interested in, please check that out, too.
To find out more about fair trade products, visit fairtradeusa.org
The talk about fair trade has me thinking more about the products I purchase. Most of the things I buy are either because I really like them or because I need it and it's cheap. If I can take just a couple of the things I like (chocolate for example) and spend a bit more on it to make sure I'm not adding to someone else's difficulty and instead make the decision to make sure it's fair... I think it would make me feel better. It's selfish and it's not at the same time. I'm from a small town so it's hard to find around here, but a quick check online points me to places I can order from.
If you order from somewhere like Amazon you pretty much have to order bigger amounts (10-12 bars) but who wants just one bar of chocolate? Just a few examples you can get (fair trade and organic) are: Theo Classics, Equal Exchange, Divine Chocolate.... the list goes on and on. Fair Trade USA also lists fair trade partners in the US.
Just something to think about. The more you know or something... Now I'm going to go buy some chocolate!
